I still have my family who I am close with so I'm not completely alone and I do at least have support if I need it. I can definitely look to make friends within my hobbies. None of them cycle, none do photography and a few like football. I do have hobbies that I enjoy, mostly cycling, photography and supporting my local rugby league team. Then at least I can see if anyone is a friend. I want to see if anyone will reach out I don't respond in the main group.

I'm not going to block anyone just yet but I have muted the group chat. Thankyou all of you for the kind messages! Also please don't report me to Reddit for being 'vulnerable', I'm not going to be offing myself (although I appreciate the sentiment behind the reporting). I've never experienced this before and don't know what to do.Įdit 11 hours later: Shit the bed this is a lot of responses, I can't possibly reply to all. To make it worse, I saw a (since deleted) FB story that everyone went out afterwards, but I wasn't invited. If I don't message anyone then no conversations are initiated.Īfter half the people left early (again I realized it happens constantly if I organise anything), everyone else just sat on their phones looking bored until they left, but whenever I suggested doing anything it was met with 'rather not' but no alternative suggestions. I started a new job several months ago, but no-one seems to have noticed. No-one ever asks about how I am, what I have been up to etc. People didn't laugh with me they just laughed at me, and I figured that's how it had always been but I'd been oblivious to it. I'm not invited to other get togethers and seem to be left out of all 'in jokes'. Whenever I arrange an event, people turn up late and leave early. The more I sat there with everyone, the more clicked into place. At one point I was making a drink in the kitchen and one very drunk 'friend' walked in, said 'We're all talking about how you're such a lightweight' burst out laughing and walked out. When I eventually returned back outside, everyone carried on as normal, however I became aware that I wasn't 'part' of the conversations and wasnt included in anything bar shared smirks and people glancing in my direction. A secret I confided in one friend was broadcast to the whole group, again to much laughter. I sat in bathroom for about 10 minutes and just listened to the onslaught of insults. Everything from the drinks I make people (all are just thrown away) to the night getting better when I leave. My name was mentioned several times in the following minutes where my 'friends' tore me to nothing, insulting everything about me and everything I try to do. After the laughter subsided I heard someone mention my name and a comment along the lines of 'What an absolute mess' and even more laughter. Pre-empting the toilet visit I opened the window and was treated to hearing laughing from outside (the toilet window is on the side of the building, so not visible from the garden). I hosted a house party for some friends to celebrate my birthday, and whilst everyone was outside enjoying the sun I went in to use the toilet. I found out by accident when I went to the toilet. Today I (33 M) realised that I am nothing more than the laughing stock/butt of all jokes in my friendship circle.

Stay home and get wasted mem